Let Me In

aijalon
aijalon Members Posts: 919
edited April 2011 in Waiting To Exhale
Excuse the explicitness of my pleadings but this waiting has broken the man in me.
Not on my knees but nearly.
Begging, pleading, yearning for you to let me in.
I want out of this cold.
Need to share your warmth.
Wont you?
I know you would have but the man in me had to play the role of an ? .
Impressed the boys though.
You kept it moving. And moving. And moving.
Me?
I held the demeanor together.
All of three days.
Big man that I am right?
So what’s your angle?
Does me being in this position remind you of your superiority?
I can admit it; that I knew that you knew me before I knew you.
Trapped in the never ending cycle that has become this pursuit I sought to entice with promises of infinity and beyond.
You indulged me.
I appreciate your attempts at ignorance.
Can’t say that it made me feel better.
Won’t you let me in?
I whiffed your essence ……….was entrapped by the fragrance.
Oh so…….beyond anything that the human mind could ever conceive
I drank from your fountain; yet I feel parched.
Equilibrium seems so unbalanced.
Won’t you come down and play.
Shed those wings angel and for a moment be human.
Can I?
May I?
Won’t you let me in?
Feel my hand on the curve of your spine.
Whispers as they tantalize the erogenous zones of your mind.
I feel your body feeling my urges.
I sense your mind’s resolve.
I falter in my desperation.
You’ve made a man of this boy.
Won’t you let me in?
These past three years. I mean days. Time’s faded without your hushed whispers in my ear.
Urging me on in my purposeful thrusts.
Let me in baby?
I know. Feel. Hope that I belong inside you.
I’m confused as to my rightful place.
You’ve ended me. Destroyed all that I know of myself.
Take me to a place where the cold is but a memory.
Where eternity is but a moment.
Mold this clay between your fingers.
May I?
I promise. Swear. I lie even.
I’d do whatever it takes.
Your desire melts my will.
Open the gates of paradise’s garden where wildflowers bloom without cease.
Let me be the source of the water that sustains your rose petals.
LET ME IN

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