Anyone on the IC suffer from depression?
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Depression is crazy, it makes people do and say weird stuff and it also makes their behavior strange as well.
Topics like this though I usually avoid, mainly because there's always ignorant muhfuckas that make light of it or don't take it as seriously as they should.
Is the same with alot of mental health issues and thats also why black folks are the most succeptible to these disorders, nobody takes the ? seriously.
I have a friend whose brother ate his pistol over depression. The only thing traumatic that happened to him was the his father left his mom and the divorce brought out all kinds of ugly family secrets, dude lived with that ? for years and never got checked out, eventually he said "? it" and blew his own brains out.
Unless you've really experienced it you can't tell people how to deal with it, there's no telling how folks react to adversity or traumatic situations.
Yeah my homegirl told me about her uncle who was depressed over losing his life savings and blew his brains out with a shotgun, his own kids saw it when they came home....grateful I don't suffer from depression and won't judge those who are, some things in life are really ? up -
Drink heavily, play lotto, smoke astronomical amounts of weed! Anything but getting on anti depressants they'll ? u
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Going through it now. Mines is more financial and career based than anything and it trickles
down to relationships, social life, recreation, etc. Because of the difficulty of finding your ideal
job/career, plus have to deal with debt, family issues, and other things. You look for that answer
in doing something that you are passionate to do. -
Been dealing with a deep depression for ca 5 years now on & off. Like @traestar alot of it has to do with job/career & not having money as well as family issues that just piled up around that time & on. Always feels extra down when u know u down in the hole job/career wise & everybody around you used to roll with seem (keyword!) to be doing good even the ? with no high school education or whatever.
That ? also boils down to me having issues in my head. Im not a psychopath or some ? but ive developed a chip on my shoulder for a few years, alot of anger towards alot of "unfair" things as well as me suspecting that i have anxciety issues (social anxciety, a lil bit OCD etc) which is why i hate dealing with people & even friends, who i dont hang with at all anymore to the point of total shut down anti-socialism, & might be why i'm out of a job.
Basically i'm a weirdo ? up in the head i think. Yet im the most respectful dude when you talk to me or see me. Not as much as before but i still am. LOL.
The best way to describe me would prolly be that 1 dude with huge potential that seem to be slipping off, feel me?
*waits for somebody to ? on me now..dont really care tho..i like tellin the real about myself..like therapy for me* -
Depression is a serious illness and should not be taken lightly. It bothers me that depression and its symptoms are taken lightly are joked about or even worse those that suffer are called selfish or that it is all controlled by changing their mind state. Misconception and misdiagnosis of depression is rampant.
For me I have struggled for as long as I can remember. Although I know most of the root cause for it, I also believe that it is genetic (in my case)
I have chronic depression-diagnosed as Dysthymia, less severe than major depression but symptoms are long lasting and you can have bouts of major depression-called double depression.
The symptoms of dysthymia are the same as those of major depression but not as intense and include the following:
*sadness or depressed mood most of the day or almost every day
*loss of enjoyment in things that were once pleasurable
*major change in weight (gain or loss of more than 5% of weight within a month) or appetite
*insomnia or excessive sleep almost every day
*physically restless or rundown that is noticeable by others
*fatigue or loss of energy almost every day
*feelings of hopelessness or worthlessness or excessive guilt almost every day
*problems with concentration or making decisions almost every day
*recurring thoughts of death or suicide, suicide plan, or suicide attempt
As with any disease, please be mindful of those that suffer.
And those that consider suicide or actually commit suicide, believe me they are not trying to be selfish at all, in fact it is the opposite. They feel so worthless that the thought process is often that their loved ones will be better off without them. -
CirocObama wrote: »Been dealing with a deep depression for ca 5 years now on & off. Like @traestar alot of it has to do with job/career & not having money as well as family issues that just piled up around that time & on. Always feels extra down when u know u down in the hole job/career wise & everybody around you used to roll with seem (keyword!) to be doing good even the ? with no high school education or whatever.
That ? also boils down to me having issues in my head. Im not a psychopath or some ? but ive developed a chip on my shoulder for a few years, alot of anger towards alot of "unfair" things as well as me suspecting that i have anxciety issues (social anxciety, a lil bit OCD etc) which is why i hate dealing with people & even friends, who i dont hang with at all anymore to the point of total shut down anti-socialism, & might be why i'm out of a job.
Basically i'm a weirdo ? up in the head i think. Yet im the most respectful dude when you talk to me or see me. Not as much as before but i still am. LOL.
The best way to describe me would prolly be that 1 dude with huge potential that seem to be slipping off, feel me?
*waits for somebody to ? on me now..dont really care tho..i like tellin the real about myself..like therapy for me*
yea man you feel that until you have that position, you feel everything is not in place. -
It's just a state of mind. Get over it.
And the talk about suicide being selfish, I don't agree with it whatsoever. What obligation do you have to anyone? At the end of the day, you die alone and have to live for yourself. You have to take care of yourself in order to take care of other people. Not condoning suicide, just saying.
You're wrong.
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Study this pic for a while then drink a half bottle of Scotch, should make you feel better.
[img]http://www.costumeshop.us.com/images_products/? -razor-blade-2377lar.jpg[/img]
I thought you were suppose to cut top to bottom? -
BlackxChild wrote: »Study this pic for a while then drink a half bottle of Scotch, should make you feel better.
[img]http://www.costumeshop.us.com/images_products/? -razor-blade-2377lar.jpg[/img]
I thought you were suppose to cut top to bottom?
You are if you do it right, it makes it "near" impossible to suture and you would bleed out faster. Takes forever to bleed out the illustrated way.
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*Warning - long post*
I know i ? around alot here but ? is seriously dark. I've never been the "suicide type" but everyday i'm losing my mind & can't do ? to change it & i'm almost on the edge yo. Never thought i'd come to a place like this.
I've almost become too comfortable solo dolo, not talkin to no one & being irked in the head. What's funny is that i've always gone through little fazes periodically were i get all super depressed, even for ? some might consider small ? or whatever. I know that the only change that's gonna make a difference is if i start being social again & changing my enviroment & use that to my advantage but after not having contact with people for a few years it's hard. Hard to come out of that shell, again being too comfortable & used to your current position, & obviously relationships takes a while to build up when you haven't "taken care" of them for a while.
& i swear it seems like i'm the only one going through it, or at least the only one who has a hard time hiding it & putting on a costume & act all happy still. That's always how i've been tho too.
Developed such a anti-socialistic behavior, such a pessimistic behavior & low self esteem behavior. I feel like i need therapy but you know how that goes. You don't trust them, too much money - which i don't even currenly have & things like that.
That's why i make alot of those jokes y'all see me make. It's an escape for me. Not to act ? on the net (Lol!) but to do anything possible to ease my mind & make me & people laugh at ? .
*Excuse the rant*
Questions..
Just in general how many believe depression is a disease? If it is i must've had it for almost 10 years. Also, if anyone else is going through it how do y'all cope with it? Drinks? Drugs? Something else? I'm afraid of doing anything. Rarely drink, never smoked or done drugs. Afraid of falling into a deeper hole if i cope with it ? or whatever. And how are y'all able to hide your depression? -
CirocObama wrote: »*Warning - long post*
I know i ? around alot here but ? is seriously dark. I've never been the "suicide type" but everyday i'm losing my mind & can't do ? to change it & i'm almost on the edge yo. Never thought i'd come to a place like this.
I've almost become too comfortable solo dolo, not talkin to no one & being irked in the head. What's funny is that i've always gone through little fazes periodically were i get all super depressed, even for ? some might consider small ? or whatever. I know that the only change that's gonna make a difference is if i start being social again & changing my enviroment & use that to my advantage but after not having contact with people for a few years it's hard. Hard to come out of that shell, again being too comfortable & used to your current position, & obviously relationships takes a while to build up when you haven't "taken care" of them for a while.
& i swear it seems like i'm the only one going through it, or at least the only one who has a hard time hiding it & putting on a costume & act all happy still. That's always how i've been tho too.
Developed such a anti-socialistic behavior, such a pessimistic behavior & low self esteem behavior. I feel like i need therapy but you know how that goes. You don't trust them, too much money - which i don't even currenly have & things like that.
That's why i make alot of those jokes y'all see me make. It's an escape for me. Not to act ? on the net (Lol!) but to do anything possible to ease my mind & make me & people laugh at ? .
*Excuse the rant*
Questions..
Just in general how many believe depression is a disease? If it is i must've had it for almost 10 years. Also, if anyone else is going through it how do y'all cope with it? Drinks? Drugs? Something else? I'm afraid of doing anything. Rarely drink, never smoked or done drugs. Afraid of falling into a deeper hole if i cope with it ? or whatever. And how are y'all able to hide your depression?
Depression I believe is a mental disorder, check DSM Manual. But dude, I'm feeling kinda the same way, however what I've done is start working on what I want to do (job wise) and start getting around people who are like minded. Where I'm at in South Jersey, there's very limited opportunities..so I've decided to move networks to Philly so I could talk and socialize with people on the job. If Philly area is not work, I'll work my way to DC or the other way to North Jersey, Trenton all the way to NY. I'm alot better then I was a year ago.
Update: I think its this http://allpsych.com/disorders/mood/index.html -
CirocObama wrote: »*Warning - long post*
I know i ? around alot here but ? is seriously dark. I've never been the "suicide type" but everyday i'm losing my mind & can't do ? to change it & i'm almost on the edge yo. Never thought i'd come to a place like this.
I've almost become too comfortable solo dolo, not talkin to no one & being irked in the head. What's funny is that i've always gone through little fazes periodically were i get all super depressed, even for ? some might consider small ? or whatever. I know that the only change that's gonna make a difference is if i start being social again & changing my enviroment & use that to my advantage but after not having contact with people for a few years it's hard. Hard to come out of that shell, again being too comfortable & used to your current position, & obviously relationships takes a while to build up when you haven't "taken care" of them for a while.
& i swear it seems like i'm the only one going through it, or at least the only one who has a hard time hiding it & putting on a costume & act all happy still. That's always how i've been tho too.
Developed such a anti-socialistic behavior, such a pessimistic behavior & low self esteem behavior. I feel like i need therapy but you know how that goes. You don't trust them, too much money - which i don't even currenly have & things like that.
That's why i make alot of those jokes y'all see me make. It's an escape for me. Not to act ? on the net (Lol!) but to do anything possible to ease my mind & make me & people laugh at ? .
*Excuse the rant*
Questions..
Just in general how many believe depression is a disease? If it is i must've had it for almost 10 years. Also, if anyone else is going through it how do y'all cope with it? Drinks? Drugs? Something else? I'm afraid of doing anything. Rarely drink, never smoked or done drugs. Afraid of falling into a deeper hole if i cope with it ? or whatever. And how are y'all able to hide your depression?
Depression I believe is a mental disorder, check DSM Manual. But dude, I'm feeling kinda the same way, however what I've done is start working on what I want to do (job wise) and start getting around people who are like minded. Where I'm at in South Jersey, there's very limited opportunities..so I've decided to move networks to Philly so I could talk and socialize with people on the job. If Philly area is not work, I'll work my way to DC or the other way to North Jersey, Trenton all the way to NY. I'm alot better then I was a year ago.
Update: I think its this http://allpsych.com/disorders/mood/index.html
I hear ya but i can't see it happening with me. I will say that i've always suspected that i've had a social anxiety for the longest & reading the symptoms it pretty much sums me up. Both the social anxiety & a little bit OCD. I've always gone in & out of depression & insecurities. Even for small ? . Then after a few years you're like, "why was i even trippin' about small ? like that. Now i feel bad about feeling bad", lol. I'm just ? in the head over my self. Like i said tho i've never caused anybody else harm & disrespect. I've always been that "nice guy", which might be one reason why i have a chip on my shoulder now. Maybe it's just a self destructive behavior i have.
It's weird tho. Cuz whenever u look up anti social it's clearly exactly the opposite of what i am to that definition. But then on the other hand i don't like to talk to people, get too close to people, not converse with people until i get comfortable, which takes a while. So on the other hand i am.
I think "borderline personality disorder"/a "? /schizoid disorder" is exactly what i have. At least to the definition read from Wiki. Need to be more sure.
& then i have a chip on my shoulder with women. Far from ? but i think i haven't had the best relationship with my mother through out the years mixed with bad experiences with a few chicks during my adolescence years & seeing how some of them act in certain enviroments/situations..so i have some anger there. But ive never beaten a chick, never been aggressive towards them nor do i hate women but i do have some built up anger i believe.
LOL i'm all the way ? up like i said. Sorry for these rants btw i know it's not your problem but it's just therapy for me lol.
Glad you got it better tho my dude. Good for you. Appreciate the link too, will check it out. -
CirocObama wrote: »CirocObama wrote: »*Warning - long post*
I know i ? around alot here but ? is seriously dark. I've never been the "suicide type" but everyday i'm losing my mind & can't do ? to change it & i'm almost on the edge yo. Never thought i'd come to a place like this.
I've almost become too comfortable solo dolo, not talkin to no one & being irked in the head. What's funny is that i've always gone through little fazes periodically were i get all super depressed, even for ? some might consider small ? or whatever. I know that the only change that's gonna make a difference is if i start being social again & changing my enviroment & use that to my advantage but after not having contact with people for a few years it's hard. Hard to come out of that shell, again being too comfortable & used to your current position, & obviously relationships takes a while to build up when you haven't "taken care" of them for a while.
& i swear it seems like i'm the only one going through it, or at least the only one who has a hard time hiding it & putting on a costume & act all happy still. That's always how i've been tho too.
Developed such a anti-socialistic behavior, such a pessimistic behavior & low self esteem behavior. I feel like i need therapy but you know how that goes. You don't trust them, too much money - which i don't even currenly have & things like that.
That's why i make alot of those jokes y'all see me make. It's an escape for me. Not to act ? on the net (Lol!) but to do anything possible to ease my mind & make me & people laugh at ? .
*Excuse the rant*
Questions..
Just in general how many believe depression is a disease? If it is i must've had it for almost 10 years. Also, if anyone else is going through it how do y'all cope with it? Drinks? Drugs? Something else? I'm afraid of doing anything. Rarely drink, never smoked or done drugs. Afraid of falling into a deeper hole if i cope with it ? or whatever. And how are y'all able to hide your depression?
Depression I believe is a mental disorder, check DSM Manual. But dude, I'm feeling kinda the same way, however what I've done is start working on what I want to do (job wise) and start getting around people who are like minded. Where I'm at in South Jersey, there's very limited opportunities..so I've decided to move networks to Philly so I could talk and socialize with people on the job. If Philly area is not work, I'll work my way to DC or the other way to North Jersey, Trenton all the way to NY. I'm alot better then I was a year ago.
Update: I think its this http://allpsych.com/disorders/mood/index.html
I hear ya but i can't see it happening with me. I will say that i've always suspected that i've had a social anxiety for the longest & reading the symptoms it pretty much sums me up. Both the social anxiety & a little bit OCD. I've always gone in & out of depression & insecurities. Even for small ? . Then after a few years you're like, "why was i even trippin' about small ? like that. Now i feel bad about feeling bad", lol. I'm just ? in the head over my self. Like i said tho i've never caused anybody else harm & disrespect. I've always been that "nice guy", which might be one reason why i have a chip on my shoulder now. Maybe it's just a self destructive behavior i have.
It's weird tho. Cuz whenever u look up anti social it's clearly exactly the opposite of what i am to that definition. But then on the other hand i don't like to talk to people, get too close to people, not converse with people until i get comfortable, which takes a while. So on the other hand i am.
I think "borderline personality disorder"/a "? /schizoid disorder" is exactly what i have. At least to the definition read from Wiki. Need to be more sure.
& then i have a chip on my shoulder with women. Far from ? but i think i haven't had the best relationship with my mother through out the years mixed with bad experiences with a few chicks during my adolescence years & seeing how some of them act in certain enviroments/situations..so i have some anger there. But ive never beaten a chick, never been aggressive towards them nor do i hate women but i do have some built up anger i believe.
LOL i'm all the way ? up like i said. Sorry for these rants btw i know it's not your problem but it's just therapy for me lol.
Glad you got it better tho my dude. Good for you. Appreciate the link too, will check it out.
yea sounds like anxiety, man! I found it here http://allpsych.com/disorders/anxiety/index.html
And same, I hope you get better, my G! Because in these days, the food we eat, the air we breathe, all the actions of people from all over all play a role of how someone acts. One thing I'm doing now besides my career development is starting to change my diet and exercise more. Cutting HFCS and other additives outta my system, I believe that as well as looking to get back in the gym have made a difference. -
Am a dysthymia Sufferer
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A lot of people who are depressed just need to get a gig they like doing and make some money. Just need to keep yourself busy, stop spending so much time inside your own head over thinking and overanalyzing ? .
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when i fist left highschool i was depressed. even got diagnosed. fast forward 2 years and i'ts a little better. i don't go to therapy anymore but i still feel it sometimes. like inglewood_b said, keep yourself occupied. you mind can be a dangerous place when it's full. learn to empty it and to control it.
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Nope just on meds for psychotic episodes and mild schizophrenia, doesn't depress me at all. Hate to hear about the depression hope you get what you need.
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BlackxChild wrote: »Study this pic for a while then drink a half bottle of Scotch, should make you feel better.
[img]http://www.costumeshop.us.com/images_products/? -razor-blade-2377lar.jpg[/img]
I thought you were suppose to cut top to bottom?
most people who cut themselves do it as a release of stress. not bleed to death. -
Yes but that is SH vs suicide and I agree with you most the time self harm is for attention anyway they can get it.
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All the time. It's because I think too much.
Sometimes I envy the careless. -
I be paranoid as ? about what other people think about me even in simple ass convos. I'm pretty sure that's a symptom of social anxiety. And then to make the ? worse you understand how stupid and irrational the fear is but it's so hard to control, which makes you feel pathetic and faulty like a muthafucka smh
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Everyone gets depressed most are too insecure to speak of it and it usually manifests outwardly as anger ..
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Everybody suffers from some type of depression.
For myself I get in waves, recently I just graduated university and I didn't know what the ? I was gonna do.
Now I do. I guess it only happens when I'm confused about my purpose in life. -
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Smoke weed
Get some ?
Buy a new pair of Jordan's
Play Xbox.
