The Shrinking Act:Inspired by Nas- Live Now *viewers discretion is advised*

REAL_POETICAL

Commercials coming on lately
about people living with the disease
that used to eat me from stomach to knees
the symptoms wasn't so pleasing
and the experience wasn't something to believe in
still a fighter to this day
been fine but still have time to hurt
its not ok or its not the end
of the battle of fire and hell
within a belly of a beast
that use to feel the disease was a curse
days back when I kept seeing the hearse
stomach clenching and digesting isn't up to par
I can't get far past the lasso of stricken pain
17 never knew of such a thing
felt the symptoms but how can i explain?
to a dad that's not technically my responsibility
or in the picture
divorce of 02 left me feeling good to my shoes
but stuck in the place my mother left
my sister kept going with my mother
my brother's keeper is I
began feeling sick but don't know why
stomach is bubbling and gurgling
can't eat grease or nasty things no more
? bless but as time progress
the food pyramid continue to do harm
losing weight but i'm not alarmed
just curious to go to a appointment
test run pills taking ulcer related but not technically
can't sleep stomach is killing me
can't eat stomach doesn't agree
in the bathroom stall til about time to leave
throwing up 1:15 lunch tator tots and ham with cheese
at ease I feeling along with the toilet
fast forward to the summer where my clothes looks baggy
34 waist means 20 something lining
shirts swallowing me whole
there's no trying to fit in
girl at the time loves it
I hate it
moms concern and people can't relate to it
found out I got the thing thats killing me softly
a disease thats slept on sadly
badly killing me
bathroom and me are like peas in a pod
graphic material about to come
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stains in boxers
bad decay from the odor
stomach touching bone
face sinking in
problems are unknown
medicine isn't working
can't even co exist
energy is fading
how can this happen to me?
life is getting rare
this isn't fair
running to the rest stall
sitting in there
avoiding a impotent mess
laughter is must to my musty scent
disturbing isn't it
12am in the kitchen whipping up a ? of something safe
stew, soup, etc
this isn't getting better
last scene gruesome
laying in my own matter at 110 pounds 18 years old
no body is around


years later back to normal
but life is kinda strict
can't get acknowledgment
but treatment
2 months ahead every third month
vitamins for the lack of energy
health care policy accomplished
fortunate for somebody like me
on the scale reading 250
from a scale back when screaming out 120
i'm blessed indeed for I fighting and winning
grinning at the adversary that resides within me
have me getting thoughts of a colostomy
my wife having to change me and crowds looking in amazed at thee
pray for them days to not come eventually or never
wish for a cure but settle for whatever
i'm one of the few but not forgotten
along with the few chosen to speak out and shout on tv
I HAVE CROHNS DISEASE

Tupacfan

hey real p, this ? hit hard! I'm sorry to hear about the disease you had to live with.

Every line was felt, and just soo raw with it too.. Was vivid of your experience with Chrones.

I am too, dealing with life illnesses, and the part you said about bathroom experinces.. Man, when I was having chemo and radiation treatments, I stayed throwing up in the bathroom literally crying and hoping I wouldn't throw up and going thru the whole nausea thing was horrible..uggh..

So this piece I could def feel, and thanx for sharing this personal side as well. Glad you stay winning..

Now I'm inspired to write about my experinces, that one piece Im still working on the finishing touches..

Neways thnx again for letting us read..

REAL_POETICAL

i appreciate the props....this is like my own personal psa that i had to get off my chest....i really hope you make it through your illness...i look at illness as a battle to not only make you better, but appreciate the small things in life....sure times be a killer when its all about the "why me ? " questions...but overall those that endure pain shall see breakthrough spiritually, mentally, or physically...overall thanks again