Not Ready To Die Yet - By Tupacfan

Tupacfan
Tupacfan Members, Moderators Posts: 2,428 Regulator
edited March 2011 in Waiting To Exhale
Not Ready To Die Yet

My death peers at the world through a plumeria tree
And the tree looks out over the neighbor’s house to the Pacific
And the blue water ? commands this part of the world
Without question, rules from the kingdom of secrets
and tremendous fishes. I was once given to the water.
My ashes will return there,
but I am not ready to die yet
Nor am I ready to leave the room
In which we made love last night.

This morning I carry the desire to live, inside my thigh
It pulses there: a banyan, a mynah bird or young impatient wind
Until I am ready to fly again, over the pungent flowers
Over the sawing and drilling workmen making a mess
In the yard next door, over water
And the memory of your shoulders
In candlelight.

It is endless, this map of eternity, like a watermonster
Who swallows everything whole including the bones
And all the terrible words and how it blooms
With delectable mangoes, bananas
With the most faithful of planets,
But I am not ready to die yet.

And when it happens, as it certainly will, the lights
Will go on in the city and the city will go on shining
at the edge of the water—it is endless, this map
And the waves of longing from the kingdom of suffering
Will linger in the room in which we made love last night—
When I am ready to die I will know it,
As surely as I know your gaze
As we undressed close to the gods in that room.

There will be flowers, there are always flowers,
And a fine blessing rain will fall through the net of the clouds
Bearing offerings to the stones, to all who linger
Here— It will be a day like any other.
Someone will be hammering
someone frying fish
The workmen will go home
to eat poi, pork and rice.


- 2Pacfan

Comments

  • Techn0tic
    Techn0tic Members Posts: 30
    edited January 2010
    This is good dude. I'm a poetry buff myself. I like it a lot. I got a new drop I'm gonna post in a hour or so. You ever hear Blood On The Wall by Joe Budden?
  • Tupacfan
    Tupacfan Members, Moderators Posts: 2,428 Regulator
    edited January 2010
    Thanks for the read technotic,

    Yea i heard that track by buddens, did you write to it? anyting writen to his music has to be off the chain.. I'll be patinetly awaiting for that..
  • Techn0tic
    Techn0tic Members Posts: 30
    edited January 2010
    I'm writing it right now and it's OFF THE CHAIN so far. I'll be posting it soon for real.
  • REAL_POETICAL
    REAL_POETICAL Members Posts: 347 ✭✭
    edited January 2010
    that was very heartfelt....had shed a tear to that because the wording and the style of the poem is like a beautiful black and white movie....the image was superb while the emotion was driven throughout....simply amazing...you truly still have it and still one of my favorite poetress i've ever known

    keep droppin those words of inspiration and dedication called poetry my fellow poetress

    peace
  • PapaJuice
    PapaJuice Banned Users Posts: 435
    edited February 2010
    ayyo, i come from the street so it was hard for me to comprehend for me

    but this ? was nice like sum ? outta one of the mmorpgs I used 2 play a few years ago, bout life & death, yo?
  • Tupacfan
    Tupacfan Members, Moderators Posts: 2,428 Regulator
    edited February 2010
    that was very heartfelt....had shed a tear to that because the wording and the style of the poem is like a beautiful black and white movie....the image was superb while the emotion was driven throughout....simply amazing...you truly still have it and still one of my favorite poetress i've ever known

    keep droppin those words of inspiration and dedication called poetry my fellow poetress

    peace

    Awww thanks for the props Real P, Glad this "jawn" hit the spot with an image to go with, something i try and do with my literature material, and it's always great to have accomplish that state of mind from my readers.

    As always, I enjoy reading your drops too, an gettin inspired to write and improving myself with ya'lls material.

    Thanks for reading btw. Peact Out!
  • Tupacfan
    Tupacfan Members, Moderators Posts: 2,428 Regulator
    edited February 2010
    PapaJuice wrote: »
    ayyo, i come from the street so it was hard for me to comprehend for me

    but this ? was nice like sum ? outta one of the mmorpgs I used 2 play a few years ago, bout life & death, yo?

    Aye Juice,

    I'm glad u digg this piece right here. It's probably one of my favorite ones too. This was written a way's back when I was at life threating situation and I had to drop it here since those feelings have resurfaced.




    I' pretty much grew up on the streets myself too juice, I ain't never seen to many places but I go to too many places in my poetry lol. However this was some real ish right here, striaght written from the island of Maui.. and thanks for reading yo!
  • Tupacfan
    Tupacfan Members, Moderators Posts: 2,428 Regulator
    edited August 2010
    I wanna re-up this poem, and dedicate it to my cusine who needs these words to help her live!
  • Rocket Kidd
    Rocket Kidd Members Posts: 2,212 ✭✭
    edited August 2010
    i'm liking this one love
  • Tupacfan
    Tupacfan Members, Moderators Posts: 2,428 Regulator
    edited August 2010
    i'm liking this one love

    thank you for reading love,

    I had wrote it a ways back and I just had to re-up it and give me some kind of strenght.. Make me feel better.. Idk.. Words of comfort I guess.. Thank you for reading again and for all the support you give me love.. Preciate that!
  • BeleeDatPleighboy
    BeleeDatPleighboy Members Posts: 8,461 ✭✭✭✭✭
    edited August 2010
    Beautiful, just beautiful...
  • Tupacfan
    Tupacfan Members, Moderators Posts: 2,428 Regulator
    edited August 2010
    Beautiful, just beautiful...

    thank you for taking the time to read this!

    Peace!
  • Tupacfan
    Tupacfan Members, Moderators Posts: 2,428 Regulator
    edited March 2011
    Nope, and I still ain't ready :)

    needed to come back to this poem to further give me strength....