the Story of my Birth Parents by VSOP *written to joe budden-sober up*

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VSOP
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edited November 2010 in Waiting To Exhale
comments welcome

sorry i've been gone-alot of ? goin on but I hope yall good

Bless



pops didn't know what he was doin, huh?
mama was young and stupid, huh?
she told him to get a magnum
you told her to go get it, huh?
I only say that cuz I've done it before
and I am my daddy's only lil boy


I think


I am the problem when you add up 2 plus
2 blunts
2 cups of grandads moonshine
equals they'll get theirs in due time

the rest is history
premeditated ?
had me born a premature baby
but I've become pretty mature lately
had to realize
that I was given up by 2 kids that didn't want me
I can see my mama sittin down to eat with her family
she tells her folks that she doesnt want anything
she just ate and wasn't hungry
they're interested
i'm kickin in her tummy
she cringes
shes tellin em I'm just a value meal number 3
and I'm not agreein with her
they brushed it off like it was nothin
just a dumb kid
she could draw her life on an empty canvas
attach a magnet and throw it on the fridge
they'd walk by and glance at it
go on their way
no list for christmas presents
it was their presence she hungered
then he came along and showed her the attention she wanted

then nothing else mattered

his parents told him to "stop seein that girl!"
but they found each other time and time again
from playground to park bench
2 smart ass kids
thinkin that the world is their oyster
aphrodisiac dreams
he would let Marvin Gaye sing for him
but she didn't hear it right
he'd write down his lyrics on a card
give it to her and try to pass it for his poem
she read it all from indention to period
thinkin she knows him
gives up all her innocence
then she doesn't get her period

OHSHIT

he suggests abortion

but she hid me for a few months
and he didn't notice
just thought she was givin him the cold shoulder
little did he know I was growin older in her belly
she tells him she can't abort me

I remember yelling

the cover ups begin
the baggier the clothes get
she doesn't leave her bedroom
he doesn't tend to her cuz hes long gone
shes on her own

my granparents find out
they don't know what to do so they put her in "TIMEOUT"
scold her
start goin to church every sunday night
like I was Abraham's son and maybe you'd want my life
should have been named Isaac

one night she told them "I'm sick"
then she threw up right when her water broke
they snatched her up and took her to the hospital
I was born and I am not important
John Doe's kid

she was only 17 so I don't blame her
I am Jacks unwanted anger
they put me up for adoption
and a ? loving family got me

who would wanna adopt me?
Lord knows

My dad?
I don't think twice

my birth mother
I owe her my life
twice

she didn't abort me
so I dont feel like an accident
I could kiss her
and by giving me up
I didn't die in that car accident with her.

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  • Tupacfan
    Tupacfan Members, Moderators Posts: 2,428 Regulator
    edited October 2010
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    Dam!

    This is just sooooo friggin deep! Like fa real..

    You took us into detail, the rhyme scheme was sadly nice... Was well written.. I'm speechless over all.. And def felt.. Glad you shared this with us and I hope all is well and at peace with you bruh! We all been going thru some stuff and I think that's why its kinda empty in here.. You know it was cracckin with us 3.. ? is stall..


    Neways, I enjoyed this poetic piece.. Very heart felt and be thankful your still here. I'd love to share my personal stor one of these days about birth moms and pops..


    Peace!
  • VSOP
    VSOP Members Posts: 195 ✭✭
    edited October 2010
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    tupacfan wrote: »
    Dam!

    This is just sooooo friggin deep! Like fa real..

    You took us into detail, the rhyme scheme was sadly nice... Was well written.. I'm speechless over all.. And def felt.. Glad you shared this with us and I hope all is well and at peace with you bruh! We all been going thru some stuff and I think that's why its kinda empty in here.. You know it was cracckin with us 3.. ? is stall..


    Neways, I enjoyed this poetic piece.. Very heart felt and be thankful your still here. I'd love to share my personal stor one of these days about birth moms and pops..


    Peace!

    thanks mama

    I dont know ? about my birth parents but what the papers tell me and the part about my birthmom dyin in a car accident a few weeks after I got adopted

    other than that..this was more of "I wonder what they went through" type ? ya feel me?

    appreciate the feedback-ill get back to your pieces when I get a minute

    been mad busy since I jus moved back home after 2 years
  • Tupacfan
    Tupacfan Members, Moderators Posts: 2,428 Regulator
    edited October 2010
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    VSOP wrote: »
    thanks mama

    I dont know ? about my birth parents but what the papers tell me and the part about my birthmom dyin in a car accident a few weeks after I got adopted

    other than that..this was more of "I wonder what they went through" type ? ya feel me?

    appreciate the feedback-ill get back to your pieces when I get a minute

    been mad busy since I jus moved back home after 2 years


    I feel it.. Goad your able to express it the way you think..

    that must be hard being left with no roots of your history or who you are..

    I know I been busy too, but I try and make time for poetry in the mist of a lot of unwanted drama.

    Keep writing and may peace be upon you bruh!
  • VSOP
    VSOP Members Posts: 195 ✭✭
    edited October 2010
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    tupacfan wrote: »
    I feel it.. Goad your able to express it the way you think..

    that must be hard being left with no roots of your history or who you are..

    I know I been busy too, but I try and make time for poetry in the mist of a lot of unwanted drama.

    Keep writing and may peace be upon you bruh!

    you aint lyin

    its definitely somethin I had to come to grips with as far as who am I and where did I come from ya feel me?

    I jus adopted my surroundings and started my family tree with me being the roots and jus go from there

    hopefully soon ill plant that SEED *pun intended* and grow this mufukin forest lol
  • Tupacfan
    Tupacfan Members, Moderators Posts: 2,428 Regulator
    edited October 2010
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    VSOP wrote: »
    you aint lyin

    its definitely somethin I had to come to grips with as far as who am I and where did I come from ya feel me?

    I jus adopted my surroundings and started my family tree with me being the roots and jus go from there

    hopefully soon ill plant that SEED *pun intended* and grow this mufukin forest lol

    I can only imagine VSOP! Having to come to grips with just that is nothing easy.

    But like you mention, starting your own family tree is part of the healing process so go on ahead and plant them seeds thru the empty forests and soon it'll spring up sons and daughters :)

    LOL at pun intended..
  • PoetLaureate
    PoetLaureate Members Posts: 39
    edited November 2010
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    That was absolutely dope yo...fire as always!