RTM Classics: "Hurt Me Soul" (2006)

Tha Killa wrote:

Back in the day this forum used to be the premier forum for young writers to come together and challenge each other to step their game up.

With the recent upgrades and changes to the site, this forum has fallen off harder than Owen Hart at the Over the Edge PPV event in '99 (Gawd rest his soul), so I figured I'd try and find some of the classic collabos that I used to orchestrate.

So for the next few weeks, I'll be dropping a few of the threads that helped not only shape the forum, but shaped the writers who made RTM what it was......

So without further ado, here is our remake of Lupe Fiasco's "Hurt Me Soul". Many of the people in these threads haven't posted here in well over 3 years, but the verses they left behind will always be around as long as I'm still here. I hope you enjoy!

(Empty_M)
Living with feelings of life, vivid and slight
I picture something not from a vision of sight
? forgive me, but why was I given a life?
These thoughts make me wonder if I’m living it right
Did I mention, no friendships, it's all business
Kinda corny, take an ear so ya’ll will listen
Riches all glisten, now getting some more intrest
After all the failures, I finally show ya’ll different
Any chance to be anything like a man to me
What I plan to be, nice wife with a family
People giving bland belief like I don’t plan to reach
I’m thinking it’s cool, they’ll be nothing but fans to me
I got the part missing, at least I’m feeling I do
Most just played along like they know they feeling it too
I show a pain for gifts now still as a youth
Learned the worst thing that you could ever get is the truth

(Chorus)
My mom can't feed me, my girlfriend cheats me
I'm desperate for money, the hood don't love me
The cops wanna ? me, this nonsense built me
And I got noooo place to gooo
They bomb my village, they call us killers
Took me off they welfare, can't afford they health care
My teacher won't teach me, my master beats me
And it huuurts meee soooul

(Tha Killa)
As I tred a path full of ashes, dead bodies, & caskets
Hope, I couldn't grasp it, and pain, I couldn't mask it
Had life become hapless? The Devil's party, I crashed it
I asked a woman what happened, but she's seeing heaven in flashes
Her past is not to be mentioned, her line of thinking's demented
She resented the Father, who never really repented
It's finished, she would endlessly love Him religiously
Deceivement was part of life, & the reason her son is heathen
Believe it, I continued my journey and found a hallow tip
And near the shell I found the baby that had to swallow it
Feel the pain of the impoverished and search daily for positives
Spot lots of the opposite, when politics don't acknowledge it
Find ya dream and follow it, take ya anger and bottle it
Absorb this wisdom, borrow it, and save it for if tomorrow hits
Stomaching all your sorrows, and never losing control of your goals
Will make whole all the holes that keep on hurting ya soul

(Chorus)

(Empty_M)
Debatable sinning, many ways to be making a living
The basic thoughts I put in anything making a rhythm
Lawyer above the law, with bars that’s taken and given
But I’m working for the pen like I’m waiting for prison
Never could mention, another view like another dimension
But I did meet some with a phrase and others a sentence
Changed my mind without further convincing
From wearing my heart on my sleeve, now I further the distance
You learn a lot when you’re stuck in an entrance
The exit is always behind; the walls cover your interest
Old is yards behind, new is covered in inches
If you see it like I see it then what is the difference?
Brothers relentless, but I still give their mothers a mention
Cause I plan to be a kingpin, while others are henchmen
Blow steam when another is venting
I research words, so each piece is another invention

(Chorus)

(JerzeeBalla)
I was a young lad, and Dad was all that mattered to me
I knew he died, but he's just sleep.....That's what I'd rather believe
Never did teach me to survive, it just kept slippin' his mind
But the streets will eat you alive, so now I'm livin to die
He was too busy chasing the pipe to stay in my life
My dreams destroyed by a fiend.....Cried when he traded my bike
For that life altering offering that the corner dwellers sell ya
Mama held the family down, but as anybody will tell ya
Not the same..... To her credit I'm surely certain she tried
But to this day only she knows how much I'm hurtin inside
Cause every boy needs a father, I needed mine more than most
But drugs snatched him away everytime I needed him close
Nowadays my life has changed since the birth of my kid
And I'm at ease now, my girl has helped me learn to forgive
I tell ? that I understand it wasnt all a mistake
And all my fears leave with these tears as they fall down my face
I'm so blessed......


(Chorus)
I love my daughter, we ain't got no water
I can't get hired, they cross on fire
We all got suspended, I just got sentenced
So I got noooo place to gooo
They threw down my gang sign, I ain't got no hang time
They talk about my sneakers, poisoned our leader
My father ain't seen me, turn off my TV
'Cause it huuurts meee soooul


(MurderM)
Soul sings but it's never been proving or even soothing,
Hallucination of bruises amongst the essence I move in...
Regardless of scars, my souls useless so deaths to follow,
I grab bottles, a hundred proof to try and forget tomorrow...
Drowning in sorrow, "remain focused" I keep telling myself,
But swallowing pills wit' St. Ides, straight sonning my health...
My Life? I hate it! facing the game wit' the cards I'm dealt,
Write my verses wit' blood.. making sure the bars is felt...
Starring at the wall comparing my life to unachieved goals,
Feeling like it's too late.. I ? it away in a toilet bowl...
And thats how the story goes, wit' no soul it's even colder,
No little people on they knees sittin between my shoulders..
Like survivin' wit' no guidance or being deprived of ya breathin',
You suffocate and smother yaself wit' all this hate for no reason...
Needing a breather or just a minute to re-gather ya focus,
Before you lose it.. end of ya rope.. lose ya sanity smokin'...
Smash the vanity, glass is sand to me, problems is ants to me,
Soon our essence will flee.. then ya soul gotta answer to He!
All chanting 'No second Chances' do away these heathens,
Dismiss the souls and bury they bodies in the Garden of Eden...


(Chorus)
I'm in need of protection, I hate rejection
I had it aborted, we got deported
My laptop got spyware, they say that I can't lie here
But I got noooo place to gooo
I can't stop eatin, my best friend's leavin
My pastor touched me, I love this country
I lost my earpiece, I hope y'all hear me
'Cause it huuurts meee soooul