Isolation

Temporary insanity
constant feel to touch vanity
and other entities to my madness
6 months without a job
and I'm hopeless and hopeful
for a solution
no institution could keep this madman
that once had it all
from a news story to history
suicidal but yet sane to maintain
my brain sees images like failure
all sorts of behavior plague this tomb
alone in the zone while wife is gone
and i have no one to call to hold on
leech off of their spirits so i can feel complete
this is deep and i'm starting to fade away
from existence
no more reality
my soul isn't in it no more
lost focus and gaining weight
heavy its pouring onto my front
i can't escape
wishing on a wishing well
for somebody to relate the hatred and frustration
of a hard worker
stuck in the wilderness yelling to ?
but ? plays along with the echo
nobody hears the pleads of a lost driven lunatic
I GOTTA BREAK OUT OF THESE WALLS SO QUICK
don't wanna leave though...don't know people
too broke to walk and too pride driven to drive away
my family is gone and no one cares
not even myself and its bound to flare up
stomach pains and anxiety
i'm a locust to society
demons got an eye on me
angels try to reconcile with me
but i WANT THE VOICES TO STOP
institution disillusion got me pushing thoughts like shooting rocks
THIS RECESSION CREATED A MONSTER
and a solution to not believing
whats the point of believing when its deceiving to stop the dreams from happening
the nights of turning and tossing
and the days where tv plays a big part of people at fault
with themselves
no reality everything's phony
lonely I am and solitary is my burial
carry me home these four walls of punishment
to a place where I didn't take a chance and stayed in the lane
now pain comes everyday
as these moments become a distant testimony
but the question i ask is....when i shall deliver it
and a key shall deliver me to freedom